Wednesday, 28 January 2009

Is My Soulmate Out There, Somewhere?

I have been spending almost 2 weeks at Jenderak Selatan, Pahang. It was longer than intended, since being with Yenny is all fun. Besides, I always do my best thinking whenever I'm with her. One should never say no to nights of girlie fun and hours of pillow talks.

Spending lots of time with Yenny has made me realise many things; one of them is the fact that I don't miss C much. In fact, I rarely sent him text messages while I'm away.

I was really mad at him last week when I found out that he's contacting a girl he knew from Facebook. When I found out about it, I immediately called him and asked him about it. What's worse is that he gave his phone number to another girl,asking her to sms him whenever she's free. I mean, come on, he doesn't even sms me much! During week days when he's at work, being the understanding girlfriend that I am, we would only sms once or twice a day!

I believe that I have the very right to be mad and angry at him for treating me the way he does. Being his loyal girlfriend of 3 years, I deserve better, don't I? I was so mad at him, I didn't even replied his messages and ignored his calls. I was seriously thinking of ditching him, finding another place to rent and moving out. There are many other reasons that made me think of leaving him, not just because he contacts other girls.

I am sick of him being childish, being irresponsible and taking me for granted. Just because I care about him very much and I'd do anything for him, it doesn't mean that he can take advantages of my kindness, right? I so much want to marry him, but I am afraid of what the future holds for us. Is he the right man for me? Are we going to be happy? Or is there someone else for me out there? Will I find my soulmate someday?

I've made my decision, but I'd like to hear your say on this issue, my dearest readers. Your input will be greatly appreciated. I'll be coming back to KL tomorrow. Yay for fast Internet connection (sorry gal! Hehe..), boo hoo for leaving my bestest gal ever! Hope you guys had a wonderful Chinese New Year! :)

It's 3 am now, am off to feed our 2 very cute kittens! See ya when I see ya!

4 ramblings:

  1. Hmm....
    Hmmm.....
    Hmmmm.....

    Let me think about this one...

    Hmm...
    Hmmm....
    Hmmmm.....

    We'll chat when you come back ok dearie!!

    Talk soon xoxoox
    LJ
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  2. Hi LJ! It's so nice to hear from you. I'll talk to you soon ya. :)

    xoxo, Debbs
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  3. LOL.. I like LJ's comment. I am not sure I was the right person to comment on this topic; since I *ehem* young and all, but I am in the same shoes like yours right now. But what makes the different is we are still not that serious in our relationship yet.

    I have been with this girl for 2-3 years now. It's quite hard for me to move on since I already comfortable with her and to think about starting the dating ritual over again is already tiring my soul out. Plus, juggling all those stuff with another hand tied to my study is quite a task for me. LOL

    I wish you all the best in your relationship. Follow your heart bebe :)
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  4. Being comfortable is the situation I'm in right now, I think. It will take me a few days, maybe a week to figure out everything.

    Currently in such a low mood, no one should get near me since it might be contagious! Lol! :)
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